本研究以自我參與、自我敘說的方式，呈現超個人心理治療中的奧修「神秘玫瑰」活動，對研究者本身帶來何種的生命經驗?而此經驗又對研究者產生何種影響? 透過自我敘說的研究取向，研究者感受到整個活動過程，就像是從「頭」到「心」的療癒—一步一步地展現出研究者的人際關係、欲望、人格特質、身心狀況，並慢慢地開始化解掉身、心的不舒服，而產生人際模式、行為的改變，也幫助研究者領悟到助人工作的原動力。除此之外，透過活動過程的臉部紀錄，研究者也看到自己較深的內在情緒狀態。 而在故事敘說後的分析中，研究者發現自己小時候的經驗，影響到目前的人際關係與工作、生活態度，並在活動中得到轉化，而產生了具體的改變。除此之外，在整體生命能量上，也產生流動或提昇，並體會到自我生命的富足，是助人工作的原點。 在反思的部份，區分成活動參與者與論文研究者，兩個不同的層次。在參與者部份，我發現自己的生命，其實是一直在對抗主流的心理學、精神醫學，以表達精神障礙者家人的不滿，卻忘了把這股力量，轉成正向的力量，來照顧好自己。在研究者部份，發現要透過語言傳達自己的經驗，其實是一件不容易的事，並看到東方智慧運用在助人工作的可行性。 在建議的部份，再依據本研究的結果，提出帶領類似「神秘玫瑰」活動的超個人心理治療團體，所需注意的事。 最後，在「對話」的部份，呈現出研究者參與不同靈修活動的經驗，與經驗間的對話；並透過「現在的我」來看到，活動心得領悟是對參與者的當下有益，而提醒讀者去經驗自己的生命禮物。 / The study is exploring the experience of the researcher participates the Osho Mystic Rose activity and what is the meaning of these life experiences.So the researcher will participate the group activity and narrates what he experiences. From the activity,the researcher feels that the process of the activity is a kind of therapy from head to heart.So the researcher can see clearly his relationship,desire,personality trait,and psycho-body situation.Then in the process of activity,the discomfort of psycho-body slowly disappears and the model of researcher’s relationship changes.The researcher also has an insight about the base of the work of helping others.The researcher also see the deeper emotion state from the record of the face pictures of the process of the activity. From the meta-story,the researcher finds that his childhood experience has influenced the present relationship,work,and the life’s attitude.And by participating the activity,the researcher’s state is changed and.the life energe is rising.Otherwise,the researcher is awaring that the helper’s blooming life is the root of the work of helping others. About the self-reflection of study,it can be discriminated two levels—participant and researcher.In the participant level,I find that I,the brother of psychotic handicap is against the dominant psychology and psychiatry to show the bitterness.But I forget to translate the opposed energy to positive energy to take care myself well.In the researcher level,I.find that it is difficult to use language to transmit experience to others,and maybe the east wisdom can be applied to the wok of helping others. In advice,the researcher suggested something important about leading the transpersonal psychotherapy group. It is that the group leader should construct the secure environment to let members exploring themselves freely and keep in touch with the present. Finally,the last part,Dialog,it shows and compares researcher’s experiences in different spirit-training groups.And from the point of view of being,the researcher’s insight from activity can not be fitted to others.