This master essay aims to contextualize my artistic practice and ask questions regarding the artist's position in relation to her work. The essay should be seen as a meta description of my artistic method which I call gonzo painting, an expression I explain and develop further in the essay. This essay is part visual and part written and should be approached more as a piece of art than a piece of academic writing. Pictures sourced from social media are used as a sort of diary and are accompanied by written thoughts. The essay was written during the six months leading up to my graduation show.