This master essay is about the process as a motive and how I collaborate with the material. How the paintings go from being constructions to becoming paintings where the color, gestures and mark making creates a content in itself. The fiction of materials.   The essay begins with me in my studio working on a painting. Trying to solve the problems in the painting. This section ends with me flipping the painting upside-down, realising that the problem I had was gone.   The next chapter is about what happens during the process from the first idea to the finished painting. How visual ideas appear in front of me in my everyday life in small details. I compare the ideas with the miracles in the 2006 movie Wristcutters a Love Story and how all the characters see small miracles; no one cares, exact the main character Zia. I also write about the Art Concrete-movment from the 1930s and there attitude towards painting.    In the end of this chapter I write about Günther Förgs artistry; his fascination of the early modernist painters and how he break their rules.    The next chapter is about the importens of AbEx (abstract expressionism), the artistry of Joan Mitchell and how the rapper MF DOOM influens my way of working with painting.   The essay end with me talking about Maria Lassnigs influence over my own artistry. How she haunts me. In this chapter I also write about my background; my home town Gävle, the importens of the HipHop subculture and feeling a bit odd in my hometown.The very last thing is a quote about painting by Amy Sillman from her essay ”On color” and how that quote led me to where I am now as a painter.