另類學校處於升學主義與考試中心的價值洪流中，不時地被添上許多莫須有的帽子，例如「另類學校畢業生沒有競爭力」、「另類學校是貴族學校」、「有問題的學生才需要另類教育」等罪名，這些問題必得由教育的主體─學生來發聲，根據他們的體驗與視角，來摘除上述種種對於另類教育的汙名。此外，為了探究不同體制的學校教育如何影響學生的自我形構，本研究嘗試以敘說研究的方式，來探究一位跨越教育體制畢業生的生命故事，從而瞭解其自我調適的歷程與自我形構的因素。自我形構是一個動態的未完成狀態，人的一生不斷的調整自我內在與外在環境至一個和諧的狀態，因此，外在環境對於自我形構的影響甚鉅，而對學生的自我形構而言，學校教育的環境便是一大重要場域。研究發現，開放自由的教育理念與方式培養學生建立較具正面與積極的自我圖像，而較保守封閉的教育理念與方式會使得學生對於自我圖像失去想像力空間，而創造性變得比較狹隘。藉由兩種教育體制的對照與激盪，不僅碰撞出教育本質之應然所在之處，同時也為另類教育學提供另一種論述基礎。 關鍵字：另類教育、全人中學、敘說探究、自我 / Alternative schools are usually misunderstood by people surrounded in the mainstream of credentialism, such as non-competitiveness, exclusive schools only for nobles or problem-maker students. In order to answer these questions raised above, it should be spoken by the narrative of students who had studied in a mainstream school and an alternative school to get rid of rumors. The purpose of the research is to deliberate the process of the self construction of students in different educational system of schools. Self construction is an ongoing process, and people would adjust constantly between inner self and outside environment to achieve a status of harmony. Therefore, school environment is one of the most important places for students. It finds that students grow positive self images easier in open and liberal school environments. On the contrary, students have lower imagination and creativity to their self images in conservative and closed school environments. The research is not only remind people what education is, but also provide a narrative for alternative schools. Keywords: alternative school, Holistic school, narrative, self

基於單一文化之困境與美學意識之衰微，台灣另類教育在二元對立的邏輯運作下，常遭受負面的誤解或打壓，普羅大眾對於另類學校學生最常見的質疑便是：「以後要怎麼跟人家競爭？」、「如何考基測？」、「出去有辦法適應嗎？」，為探究另類學校學生的生活世界及其進入體制內學校的跨體制經驗，本篇論文嘗試以敘說探究開採夏天—一位華德福學校學生的生命故事，從而了解其學習世界的變遷及內在的適應歷程。研究發現，華德福學校具備自由、對話、創造之特徵，以即興的學校圖像作為陶養創造性人格之可能條件，促使夏天在面對基測和進入體制的衝突中展現出自我組織的生命樣態，而即興美學中的自由遊戲精神與複雜思維，不僅啟示了教育引發創造的本質，同時也為另類教育學提供更多元的定位基礎。 / Because of the conformity of culture and the lack of aesthetics, alternative education in Taiwan is usually misunderstood or suppressed in the logic of binary dualism. The most common questions to alternative schools’ students are “How do they compete with others in the future?”, “How do they prepare for the basic competence test?”, and “Are they able to adapt to the life outside?” To investigate the life world of an alternative school’s student, Summer, and her experience of transferring to normal school, narrative inquiry is adopted in this research to understand the changes of the learning environments and her state of mind. According to the conclusion, the Waldorf school contains the characters of freedom, dialogue, and creation. And its picture of improvisation provides Summer with possible conditions for developing creative personality. As a result, she shows the attitude of self-organization when facing conflicts in the cross-boarder process. In addition, improvisation’s spirit of free play and complex not only reveal the essence of education as creation, but also provide alternative education with more diverse orientation.